Conservation... of WHAT???

I guess most of my stress has passed. I am settling back into the school thing. I enjoy my classes, and really enjoy my horse back riding class... we will see how fast I pick up on English style riding!!! HAHA come laugh at me.

Toby is calling often, which is great. I love talking to him and with me missing him sooooooo much, this is good. He is waking me up in the morning and it is wonderful even if it is at 530am... I am happy to hear from him at that time because then I start my day with him. I can definately tell the difference in days when hear from him first thing and the days i don't. Hearing his voice is a gift every single day. I know sometimes, it sounds totally corny I know, but for no reason at all I get a smile on my face and warm feeling in my heart when he wiggles his way into my head spiratically during the day. I feel like I sound so 9th grade like... puppy love geek. but I am not. Any mood I am in he can change it with a call or with me writing a letter to him, or just with a thought of him near, he can change it for the better.

If I chose not to go to school here in Washington, he said I would be finding a school to get my Masters degree at while in Texas. He is so in tune with my dreams and goals. All he wants for the next year is for me to get this degree since I have wanted it for the last 6 years. I have never known or had anyone so close to me who has cared so much about my dreams and aspirations. I don't know what it is about this, and I am not trying to sound like everything has to revolve around me, because it doesn't. But this is a pretty big thing you know? He is not forcing me to change my dreams for him. In the past I have had people ask me to sacrifice what I really have wanted in my life. This time I don't have to sacrifice anything yet, except for time spent with Toby. But I guess that we will have plenty of time together after I get the degree and after we get married. Do this now instead of having to do it later and be apart more. I like this. We have been thinking on the right track, it just feels wonderful that someone is so willing to support me and encourages me so very much. And if I were not to finish my ass would be kicked... by Toby... HAHA. What a great guy.

You probably see a big change in my mood/attitude about school. I think I was really scared to go back. And now that I am back into the scheme of things, it is not so scary. I still think we should go to the courthouse and sign a piece of paper so we are legally bound, but we would still consider ourselves engaged because we would not be married in the eyes of God.

Ok I am going to stop babbling on... have a great night

Ps, i have been so busy being back in school i feel like such a slacker on my felted knitted bag. gerrrrrr

Oppocites Attract

Well today was good and bad. I started out the morning great. I was happy and hopeful for a terrific day. I was woken by the best alarm in the world... Toby, and he ordered me to take a bubble bath (actually he ordered me to do that on Saturday because I had a bad day that day too, but since I didn't take it on Saturday, or Sunday, he ordered me again to take it today... and since he is Sgt Isaacs, I had better listen to him even though I am a civilian and I actually have higher rank than him. Ok, i have rambled enough on this right now). So, we continued our morning talk while I took a beautifully relaxing bath. I then went to get my braces removed. It was a day long awaited. I have had braces 3 times prior, and the only reason I got them on the 4th time was because I had migranes that wouldn't stop. So, I got them off today.

After I got home, I noticed my fiance's hampster was sreaking and gasping for breath. This hampster, Samantha (Sam the ham for short), was my man's pet and he loved her and she was only about 10 months old. So cute she was. Well she was cold and wouldn't wake up so I took her to the vet. Apparently, some time in the night she stopped taking fluids and became very dehydrated. She slipped into a coma and started to die. The doc rehydrated her and put her in an oxygen chamber and warmed her up, but it didn't end up working even though we thought there was a good chance for her coming around for a little while there. However, after her turn for the worse again, I asked the doc if it was worth it... is it worth her suffering. He said that he didn't know how much brain dammage she might have because of the lack of oxygen and coma, and since she was in the coma and dehydrated, she probably had organ failure. I made one of the hardest choices of my life and had to put Sam down so halt her suffering. Then I had to tell her dad... he took it better than I did... but I guess I was the one here with her, and he wasn't. He is detached right now, but I don't blame him.

So a bitter sweet day...

Modern Excitement

I got a note from my Secret Pal today. Yes it was short... but they said they were looking forward to spoiling me!!! I haven't done something like this since i was in high school... but this is way better! Ok i am a nerd.

Anyways, I am heading to bed. I can't quite shake this cold/ ickieness. And on top of it all, the antibiotics they gave me are making me sick... so to bed I go, earlier than normal for the past few days... Toby says I need to go to bed earlier. Well when he comes back I will have to make sure I go to bed earlier since he wakes up early to go to PT and work.

Ok ok, goodnight!

Spagetti String Theory

I have a question for you all out there even if no one is there to read this. Does anyone else out there have a nervous food? A food that you eat when you are stressed or nervous or just in a funky mood...

Well I have Angel Hair Pasta. I started getting so nervous again... or stressed out i guess, that when i went to pick up my antibiotics for this stupid cold crap that has been going around, i had to pick up a package of angel hair pasta.

I don't know why i am nervous or stressed out right now. It may be that because i am starting school again on tuesday. Maybe because I am seriously debating whether or not to just not do school and go with Toby to Ft Hood. Right now, we are puting off our wedding date to make our families happy, or more rather my family. Do i really want to go back to school? Do i really want to be a teacher??? oh wait, yes i do want to be a teacher, more than anything. But more than anything else i want to be with Toby.

Also, things would be so much easier right now if we just got legally married. In the next yr and a half my masters program will amount to about 45,000 smakers... and about 3500 more smackers for health insurance. If we got married, the army would give me health insurance and pay for my education, or at least most of it. and then we would be saving close to 50,000 bucks for what we want or need, and possibly to pay for our dream wedding.

ACK what do i do? i just want all of this to work out. I know in my heart it will. I know God will allow what is right for both Toby and me.




HAHAAH I just heard one of the best quotes ever... the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else.... ahahahahahaha

Eureka!

So here are a few pictures from late december.
These are our first pictures together. These were taken the day after he proposed.... and I accepted.

Will share more sometime soon.
Jess

sp7 questionaire

ok ok so i know i have been lacking lately, but i have been way busy with driving from washington to new mexico, getting proposed to, saying goodbye to my new fiance, going to spend the holidays with my family in colorado, and then yesterday arriving back home in washington to start grad school next week and patiently wait until toby comes home!!! so i will try to be better about my blog, but i hope you all understand.

Secret Pal 7 Questionaire

1. Are you a yarn snob (do you prefer higher quality and/or natural fibers)? Do you avoid Red Heart and Lion Brand? i tend to stay away from red heart i prefer the lion brand softness.
2. Do you spin? Crochet? i crochet and knit and sew and quilt and and and
3. What do you use to store your needles/hooks in? nothing right now... i guess an old mug is holding them currently
4. How long have you been knitting? Would you consider your skill level to be beginner, intermediate or advanced? i have been knitting since 3rd grade, but took a long break from it. so it has truly been the last 2 yrs i have been knitting. i would probably say i am intermidiate.
5. Do you have an Amazon or other online wish list? no i don't, what is that?
6. What's your favorite scent? (for candles, bath products etc.) i love citrus, and lavendar
7. Do you have a sweet tooth? Favorite candy? yes i have a sweet tooth, but am trying to cut back!
8. What other crafts or Do-It-Yourself things do you like to do? I fix my house, all sorts of stuff. i love doing hands on stuff. my fiance and i built an arbor for my garden.
9. What kind of music do you like? Can your computer/stereo play MP3s? (if your buddy wants to make you a CD) i listen to top 40 and country. and my programs can play mp3s
10. What's your favorite color? Or--do you have a color family/season/palette you prefer? Any colors you just can't stand? my house is earthy colors, i love earthy colors. i wear a lot of blue and greens and love the rich and vibrant purple blue majenta combinations.
11. What is your family situation? Do you have any pets? My fiance is in Afghanistan, my family is mostly in Colorado, and i have a dog, Haley, and a hampster named Sam
12. Do you wear scarves, hats, mittens or ponchos? I have been attempting to make myself a poncho for about a year, just never get around to it. but i wear all the above.
13. What is/are your favorite yarn/s to knit with? oh wow, i don't have a favorite really.
14. What fibers do you absolutely *not* like? i am getting a bit tired of the fun fur or cha cha stuff
15. What is/are your current knitting obsession/s? i am making felted wool things... love how those things look when they are done
16. What is/are your favorite item/s to knit? bags, hats, scarves,
17. What are you knitting right now? i am working on a sweater for my nephew, but fear that he will be too big for it by the time it is done.
18. Do you like to receive handmade gifts? i love to receive hand made gifts. makes it more personal
19. Do you prefer straight or circular needles? depends on what project but normally straight
20. Bamboo, aluminum, plastic? bamboo
21. Do you own a yarn winder and/or swift? no, neither
22. How did you learn to knit? my mom, and then i retaught my self
23. How old is your oldest UFO? ufo? unfinished object? is that what it stands for? a year old
24. What is your favorite animated character or a favorite animal/bird? not really sure what animated character, but fav animals are dogs... black labs, malemutes, goldens
25. What is your favorite holiday? not really sure right now. the day toby comes home!!!
26. Is there anything that you collect? pictures, teddy bears, beanie babies...
27. What knitting magazine subscriptions do you have? none
28. Any books, yarns, needles or patterns out there you are dying to get your hands on? stich and bitch... still dont own it
29. Are there any new techniques you'd like to learn? just a bit more variety
30. Are you a sock knitter? trying to learn... would love to knit my own socks... want to make xmas socks for my house and family...
What are your foot measurements? i wear 8-8.5's
31. When is your birthday? (mm/dd) 04.25

enjoy secret pal!!!!